my fiction leads my real life and...

[angelgazing]

I defaulted on yuletide, because real life has decided to get all up in my grill and just keep me the busiest ever. For a temporary part time employee, they are kicking my ass. And scheduling me beyond what I was expecting. :\

This is especially disappointing tonight, when my bb bro is turning 21 at midnight and I cannot go to the party and get wasted with him and the other brother I get along with very well because I've got to be at work at 8 in the morning. As best I can figure, this will require that I leave my house around 6am. Sooo much booze. So many drinking games. Such a sober and sad Nichole, sitting at home. :( UNABLE TO SLEEP, WTF IT IS 11:36. *wails*

I've also come to the realization that I just Do Not Want to go back to school next semester. It's terrible. Just... I don't want to deal with Asshole Professor Dude again. I don't. I don't want to drive every day. I don't want to take a class on business and management principles just because my school can't separate business and information technology (which, hey, not interested in anyway.)

All I've been able to think about lately is how much I would love, love, love to have my own coffeeshop/bakery/sandwich place. There would be a wall of chalkboard with the daily specials, and comfy chairs if you wanna relax and a wall with shelves of take one/leave one books. But also tables and yummy soup and possibly even pasta like I grew up with. It would be delicious and awesome, and I would probably weight a billion pounds but fuck I would be happy and I would have ALL OF THE MUFFINS. And it would be glorious.

*sighs* This has left me with something of a moral dilemma. On a scale of 1 to John Gosselin, where would I fall if I started talking to a dude I know has got a pretty gigantic thing for me that I'm sort of... eh about outside of YAY AWESOME FRIEND again just because I think he has a connection that could help me find the perfect place for that?

Lalalala I am a terrible person lalalala.

Comments

[delires.livejournal.com]

1.) This would not make you a terrible person. You need to WORK connections shamelessly to get ahead. As long as you are clear that you are not interested in him THAT WAY...I see no harm in bigging up your friendship a little more.

2.) How long do you have left at school? The thing about uni is that it is like an investment...I forced myself through all of my teaching qualifications and worked myself raw just so that I would have them behind me and then could try doing what I really wanted to do and still have them to fall back on. Once you have your qualifications, you can get a job with them...but they don't go out of date. You could finish your course and then try for the cafe idea? And if the cafe does not work out, at least you have something to fall back on.

3.) Awww drunken brothers. You will have to have a special sibling binge drink one night to make up for it! :D

4.) HUUUUUUGGGG. ♥ Wish I could make it better somehow. Mm...I am writing blind date fic? Does this help???

[foxxcub.livejournal.com]

YOU ARE NOT TERRIBLE OMG.

[jibrailis.livejournal.com]

You are not a terrible person! And I am making many unhappy faces in the direction of your work and your stress, because that is not cool, world. That is not cool.

If you ahd your own coffeeshop/bakery/sandwich place, I would show up every day for ALL THE MUFFINS, and for you, of course.

[prettykitty-aya.livejournal.com]

Terrible. Also, can I work at your coffeeshop/baker/sandwich place? kthx.

<3 <3

[sleepismyfriend.livejournal.com]

I must leave this here because you have no new entries and I do not wish to spam my flist, and it is filled with the crackery.

In 2011, angelgazing (http://angelgazing.livejournal.com) resolves to...

Overcome my secret fear of james marsters.
Learn to play the angst.
Start an u2 fund.
Find a new photoshop.
Volunteer to spend time with scrubs.
Spend more time with my pretty boys.

Get your own New Year's Resolutions (http://thesurrealist.co.uk/newyear):

[airgiodslv.livejournal.com]

I think you should absolutely follow your heart, and there is nothing wrong with following up on a possible connection to your own happiness. You know what it is and is not and how you feel, so go for it. Chase that dream. Life is too short to spend any part of it unhappy.

♥

[imagines.livejournal.com]

1. move to KC
2. open coffeeshop/etc.
3. hire me to work in your coffeeshop/etc. FOR PRACTICALLY NOTHING because I would just be so happy to be in a job I don't LOATHE
4. ???
5. profit!

/ why I'm not in business school >_>;;