23 February 2010 @ 01:22 pm
I'm not tortured; how are you ever going to relate?  
I need a zombie icon, for all I talk about them.

I don't suppose any one of you can explain postmodernism to me in small words that would be acceptable to use in a speech class? It's a big concept to try and simplify, I think. The metaphors, the reason that zombies are fucking scary--I got that. I can simplify that for a general audience. It's the postmodern concepts that tie in that I'm having issues with.

Of course, when am I ever not having issues?

Bah, and also humbug.

Have the beginning of my Brendon/Spencer zombie apocalypse AU that I wrote, and then decided failed as a beginning. I'm not giving up on the story, I'm just giving up on this part of it. I think. I promise to shut up about zombies soon.

The Beginning is Here )
Current Music: the format - career
Current Mood: nerdy
03 February 2010 @ 11:45 pm
but really, what isn't > studying for history?  

Um, around 1,400 words of what would have eventually turned into a Spencer/Brendon fake boyfriend story, because I just can't get enough of that. The file name for this is spencerbdenfauxmance. So, evidence of my continued failure to actually write Spencer/Brendon:

'cause being in love is totally punk rock )


Yeah, I got nothing.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: itunes shuffled, yo
06 July 2009 @ 03:40 pm
shut up, I'm totally using my nobody ships panic like panic icon  
OMG, you guys, I'm in tears. It's ridiculous and not stopping.

I'm totally a 12 year old girl. I feel like I just got my heart broken. This is like, as horrible as I felt about Phantom Planet times eleven.

I just... I don't even have the words, oh my god.
Current Music: panic at the motherfucking disco
Current Mood: heartbroken
14 February 2009 @ 07:13 pm
if you like it then you shoulda put a ring on it  
I am not here! I am totally making dinner right now! Quit looking at me like I have lost myself in youtube again. That is... only half true. I've also spent a good amount of time with random bandom primers (where is the Frank/Gerard primer? WHERE? I need the bad jokes and the mutual love and geekery and making out on stage. I neeeeed it.)

Anyway, Brendon Urie is sort of a single lady. I'm not even kind of kidding about how many naughty things I would do to that poor boy, you guys. I just really am not.

Fall Out Boy in the studio w/ Brendon Urie during the Making of 20 Dollar Nose Bleed.

The official video for Famous Last words, by MCR. You guys, I don't have words for this band sometimes. "Nothing you can say can stop me" is totally going to get fucking inked.

Ok! Seriously, dinner.

I'll probably be back with more later. ::looks shifty::
Current Music: famous last words
Current Mood: enthralled
12 February 2009 @ 08:36 pm
ficlet: i've got the curse - panic at the disco  
title: I've Got the Curse
rating: G
fandom: bandom, patd
summary: Brendon needs Spencer to save him! It totally would've turned into fake!boyfriend fic if I would've kept writing.
notes: The second in my attempt at the scaled down ipod suffled drabble thing. Once again, no where near drabble length. The prompt and title are both from The Curse of Curves by Cute Is What We Aim For. Thanks again to [ profile] luzdeestrellas for letting me be a crazy person, even if I will still never be as crazy as she is.

I've Got the Curse of Curves )
Current Mood: uncomfortable
Current Music: magnolia - the hush sound
25 October 2008 @ 03:03 pm
do the trick or treat  

Um. A Halloween video from Panic at the Disco.


Yeah, I got nothing else. Most awesomest Panic vid yet? I think so. I think so.
Current Music: it's almost halloweeeeeeen
Current Mood: happy
07 June 2008 @ 03:19 pm
I am scared, but only of god and a witness stand  
Whee! I haven't checked in in a while, I guess.

Hi, I haven't disappeared!

I got my tattoo and fell in love with it, with the idea of it, with the idea of more. Like, ok, see, this is my secrect:

I'm too in love with words to think straight.

The PatD show was awesome, again, and only slightly less awesome was Motion City before them. Like, ok, really, people, really. If you do not know Motion City Soundtrack I am sad for you.

And, hey, while we're at it: Phantom Planet. And I'm not just talking about California, either (tinkletinkletinktinkletinkletink) but their new stuff! The new CD! Raise the Dead, f-list, you know you wanna.

I may have to do a music spam post later, come to think of it.

But back to the main point of this!

Words! Words, words, words, words. The way they sound and fit and feel when you say them, the images, the feeling, the way they make you stop, sometimes, make you shift, make you feel like you remember, from before, from then and then and then and that one time, when you couldn't breathe and you thought you were going to burst from everything single thing around you.


Now, why is writing so hard?
Current Music: psych
Current Mood: sick
25 May 2008 @ 07:24 pm
don't pretend you've never been there  
So, yeah, let's not talk about how badly I should be writing my small fandom big bang. Let's just not.

But! Hey, look, I'm not dead? Isn't that cool?

Let's just call this a fly by recs post of fluffy fluffivity. Or something, yeah? I like making up my own words.

The Negotiation Limerick File - Funny, funny, funny fic. Like, listen, people, really. This is what is so awesome about bandom. It can make me smile like no other. For so much emo, there is really so little angst. And anyway, super!secret!spy!fic FTW. We'll pretend it isn't a Panic/MCR crossover. Because I don't read MCR. I do not!

A Day Like Today - To myself, I call this fic PROOF THAT LAURA LOVES ME LIKE BREATHING. It's Sam! And Dean! And hugs! Dude, really, really, are there two boys in the world who need hugs more than Sam and Dean? I think not.

What Kind of Day Has It Been - Sam and Dean meet the Muppets! Just, you know what, just click it. You will, I swear, hand to god, you will laugh until you die.

Brendon Urie cover of Slow Motion - Vid rec! Mostly because it makes me flail around and tell anyone who will listen how OMG I WANT TO MARRY BRENDON URIE'S VOICE OMGOMGOMG HI. No, you know what, I don't know why. I just do. It's a sickness!


Also! Well, my fortune cookie today said: You have a charming way with words and should write a book.

I'm not even kidding.

I might laminate it to my computer.
Current Music: the academy is...
Current Mood: calm
25 April 2008 @ 05:54 pm
all the pimps in training over here!  
Ok, listen, there's something I really must share with you all. Are you ready? Are you?



There. There, I said it.

Now, YouTube Stole My April links!

PatD! That Green Gentleman sneak preview - Worth watching for many reasons, not the least of which is wee!Panic saying the line that is my subject. Adorable.

The Cab (One of Those Nights) - Because, um, despite how it's slightly distracting that one of the boys in this band looks just like, uh, whatshisname [not Adam Brody] from the O.C., this video just goes to show why it's called bandom. They won't let me keep them all separated! Which translates to: uh, Hello, Random Brendon Urie and Your Smile. Yes. Shut up.

PatD! Or, you know Brendon Urie talking about... whatever - This video, probably, should be titled BRENDON HEARTS RYAN'S WOOOORDS.

PatD! Nine in the Afternoon, live, acoustic. Because, um, Brendon's voice is, like, awesome. And Jon Walker looks high as a very high thing and it amuses me.

Cobra Starship, Guilty Pleasure - for variety. "I came here here to make you dance tonight."
Current Mood: content
Current Music: guilty pleasure - cobra starship
16 April 2008 @ 12:47 am
dear voice, please don't go. beggingly, me  
So, my everything hurts.

But, you know tonight's show was at least 12 kinds of awesome (Brendon! Ryan! Jon not wearing a pink shirt! Glasses! Spaztatic Brendon! Ryan and Jon drinking out of red plastic cups instead of water bottles! Brendon throwing filled water bottles at the crowd! The way Brendon 1) moved away from the mic and 2) smiled when he said, 'fuck', as in, a hotter touch, a better... watching Brendon's fingers when he played the bass on white rabbits. No, really, listen, that kid's got some skills. Ryan and Brendon leaning toward each other while they played, all up in each others personal space, just to mess with me. During Behind the Sea, when Brendon steps way back to play the guitar and sing along with Ryan.

My god, it's like they want me to be all crazy and shippery.

There were also some less than awesome things, you know, like the obscene amount of money I spent at the merch. booth. And stupid boys who wanted to pretend the be badass like that would change the fact that they were at a Panic at the Disco concert and shove people around.

I am so fucking sore all over.

Stupid boys.

Still, you know, worth it for Panic. Like, times a thousand.

Now bed.
Current Mood: high
Current Music: lying isthe most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off
14 April 2008 @ 10:51 pm
stealing puncuation since 1985  
OMG Panic! in less than 24 hours.


OMG, Rolling Stone interview.

OMG childhood stories!

OMG wee!Ryan, I want to squish you with hugs.


Current Mood: excited
Current Music: behind the sea - panic at the disco
10 April 2008 @ 10:05 pm
your grandmother is a blastended skank!  
One day, in the future, I will look back at April '08 and think of it fondly as The Month That Was Lost To YouTube.

There should be a rehab for this shit.

I mean, come on, Panic is... The interviews just don't get old. They don't! And neither to the live shows. Because really, I think I love Brendon Urie's voice more live. Which is kind of insane and I am so going to be acting all of 12 next Tuesday (!!!) when I go to see them. I kid you not.

Here, have something not PatD related. Something, in fact, HP related. Please try not to die of shock or laughing.

Also: I love Eli Stone and so should you!

Also the second: REMIX! SO SOON OMG!
Current Music: this is how I disappear- mcr
Current Mood: silly
05 April 2008 @ 04:43 am
4 srsly  
Someone, and, you know, being awesome like I am, I won't name names, or point fingers or anything, (cough[ profile] miss_charmedcough) (and wow, I bet not even [ profile] luzdeestrellas could add a comma to that sentence) has sort of, kind of, a little bit, maybe, gotten me to read bandom.

Bandom. I hang my head. I have no will power. PatD only kthx.

Is there like, a limit to how many OTPs one girl can have? I mean really?

Now, tomorrow, (today) when I wake up, there will be remixing.

Shut up, remixing. No more RPS!

At least, not until after I get that story done.

I lose at will power!
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: the piano knows something I don't know